Some of you are fortunate enough to figure it all out at a early stage, pursue and be happy in with what you do. For others like me, we are lost, forever trying to just figure out our passions, purpose, and with a bit of rationalization...."what is it we want to do with our lives?"
In grade 10 i was set on the idea that i wanted to be an architect. People had put ideas in my head of how the profession would be, some ideas accurate/ others not.
After a long process of applying to study, i got in and pursued architecture.
I must say i did complain a lot about it to my mom, it turned out to be a lot different as to what i thought. None the less i had my eyes set on getting my degree and perseverance had luckily always been a very good quality of mine.
After 2 years i had a mental break down, got sucked in by this horrible disease known as depression, and lost all sense of purpose and passion. There was no point to life anymore. Why would i then want to do anything if in my mind i was not planning on living very long?
Its been a rough journey, 3 years EXACT from that first break-down, and as i am starting to heal, even though i still struggle with having a sense of purpose and passion, i still cannot reach a conclusion as to what i want to do with my life.
Before i was diagnosed with clinical depression, i knew life was about finding a job, being secure, making money so that i wouldn't have to just "survive", AND I KNEW that even though what i chose to do would perhaps not make me very happy, i had the skills to persevere and would have to just "DEAL WITH IT."
My journey has completely changed my perspective. NOW i know, i want to find something that will make me happy. I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY AND EXCITED TO WAKE UP EVVVVVERY MORNING AND KNOW "YESSSSS!" today is going to be a great day. I LOVE WHAT I DO! Yes with every purpose or job comes the bad and the good, i have accepted that not every day will be a happy day, but as i said my perspective now has changed so much as to 8 years ago. However, if you want to be happy, you cannot ignore the financial implications of what you choose to pursue.You might love what you do but earn so little that the financial struggle ends up making you miserable. You might choose a job which is "okay", not really feeding the soul", but you know you will have money and will be able to lead a very comfortable life.
So how will we ever know what we want to be, pursue, do with our lives if there is all these things we have to take into consideration??
I do not know. in fact i have no answers. However, i recently came across this video. It touched me very deeply as i even ended up with tears in my eyes.
Let me know what you think!?