I took this year off so i could do things that i have always wanted to do but put off. serve in ministry was plan A, door after door has been shut in my face with that one. Plan B, modeling. !7 agencies turned me down until one accepted me, but because of my height i am on their small board and not their model board. Business opportunities came, build expectation and excitement just turned into a let down and disappointment.
Its a mess. Then i came to the question, whats the message in all this mess. I wanted to give up. I loss trust and faith in the church. I felt that perhaps i was not all that beautiful being turned down countless times. I have lost trust in people with all their broken promises. But BAM, for the first time the only person i trust is myself. Fighting depression for 3 years the only one i could not trust is myself so event hough i have felt rejection and discouragement i finally came to the point of self trust, perhaps more vital than all of the above.
We all feel discouraged from one time to another. Here is a video which inspired me to keep on keeping on.